Tomorrow there is another court date. Hopefully this really will be the last one before the trial. It is the last day the babysitter will be able to enter a plea and all motions will be heard, at least this is what I understand according to Case.Net.
In my heart, I am hoping the babysitter will finally say she's guilty. It is a hope I won't let go of. I want her to tell me what happened to my baby. I want her to tell me why he is no longer alive. Why he isn't here with his family being loved and held and adored.
I want her to tell me those things. The things no trial will ever solve. My son's life was lost and I want to know why. Every time someone mentions the word trial I hope in my heart the babysitter will finally enter a guilty plea and tell me what happened to my baby Sam.
I miss my baby.